My Track Experience

When I’m alone, it’s only me and my head talking. I can’t lie to anyone. I can’t hurt anyone. I can’t do anything but what I do to myself. And if I’m out here doing what I need to do I’m only doing good things to myself. Running, sprinting, jumping, hand stands. Its all good for me and nothing but good thoughts come into my head. It’s not sitting in my house thinking “damn I wish I could get high.” It’s being out here thinking “damn this feels good.” I’m being healthy and good to my body and soul, and making progress. I feel good right now.

-WAR LC Client (doing a track experience)

My Biking Experience

My Biking Experience

by Russ

I decided to switch things up and break out my bike to do my remote experience. I was lucky enough to capture this incredible view. I’m thankful for these remote experiences, they are a good switch up from the gym and allow me to reflect on my life. The WAR lifestyle is so incredible.

A Hiking & Reading Experience

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A Hiking & Reading Experience 

by Spencer Carver

I sat up above the bench for about an hour meditating and feeling the breeze. I was reading out of The Book of Mormon about the prophet Mormon — and gave a prayer of thanks for his example, and the wonderful book that he put together.

Thanks for pushing me to do that bro–it will be a great memory…

Experience of Solitude

Experience of Solitude

By Gage

So I own some property up by causey .. I went up there , all by myself for 2 days ! Nothing but me and my thoughts ! It was great !! I took my book and read 100 plus pages ! Wasn’t worried about anything .. Worked on walking meditation the whole time ! Really got deep in thoughts and prayers ! At night the stars were just crazy ! A lot of people would think it was weird to go by myself ! I loved it !!

My Kayaking Experience

My Kayaking Experience

by Gage Wright

My experience was a super peaceful , eye opening one .. Kayaking up the canyons at causey dam ! The clouds were out of this world ! The realization of the world and the universe makes me so at peace ! I can forget about all the day to day bullshit and just get lost in the moment ! We are all so lucky to be alive !!

The Experiences I’m Thankful For

The Experiences I’m Thankful For

Garrick Brown, WAR student

In my morning routine I jogged four miles, and tonight I went and did my track work. I always love my track work because of how it keeps my spiritual connection alive, which I need or I forget about it.

WAR is just my style of program–and I’m going to continue to give it a 110%. I gotta keep getting better at living the WAR lifestyle, that’s all there is to it.

Quick to Forget

Quick to Forget

by WAR student Adam Boren

Why are we so quick to forget the places from which we came? We have come a long ways with our addiction. We have overcome craving after craving. We have ignored the constant itch that never seems to fade away. We have fought off the dragon and risen like a Phoenix from the ashes. We have worked so hard for so long. So why do we want to just throw that all away in an instant?

For me personally? This is something that I battle with on a daily basis. I am constantly finding myself looking for the instant gratification. The miracle drug. Improved performance, better/ faster sleep, increased attention, or the ability to make whatever it is that I am doing… even better! It wouldn’t matter if I had just won the lottery or just lost everything I owned. I would find a way to celebrate that victory or completely forget whatever negative feelings I was having.

At times I think we forget how bad it was before we got clean. Our word was no longer good enough to the ones that loved and cared for us the most. We couldn’t be trusted to go to the grocery store to get a gallon of milk for fear that we would be meeting up with our dealer. We buried ourselves in debt, constantly borrowing money to pay off borrowed money. We didn’t take care of ourselves physically. We didn’t eat right for fear that it would ruin our high. We lost faith in God because we felt completely alone and hopeless. It is my belief that every drug has its own individual evil demons that haunt us and they effect each of us in different ways. I can also say that even though they may have differing evils, they all undoubtedly have the same outcome. Misery and hopelessness.

With that being said, I would like to refer back to the original question. Why are we so quick to forget the places from which we came? The more clean days I have behind me, the further away I get from my active addiction, the harder it is to truly remember how bad my life had to get in order for me to want to get clean. I had lost just about everything in my life.

Coming to WAR (Workout Addiction Recovery) and meeting the amazing people that I did, taught me a lot about myself. I was shown what it means to actually live a meaningful life. I was out of options when I walked through that door and was willing to try anything I could to feel good about myself again. I challenged myself to eat healthy and get to the gym everyday. To attend twelve step meetings and share my inner most struggles with complete strangers. To reach out when things just weren’t feeling right. To my surprise life got better and better each day. I began to feel good about who I was and the man that I was becoming. I no longer feared running into people that knew of my struggles because I knew in my own heart that I was stronger than anything they could ever say to bring me down. Relationships started to be mended and trust was regained where it was once lost. Now this isn’t something that happened overnight or in a couple weeks. It has taken a lot of hard work and discipline to get where I am today. I write this not for you… But for myself. I don’t ever want to forget where I came from. It was the loneliest and darkest place I have ever been and I wish to never go back there again. As addicts we have this all or nothing kind of attitude… And it is a daily struggle to channel that energy into something positive. Being an addict isn’t easy and we sometimes have to learn things the hard way, but it’s my belief that you don’t have to keep repeating those mistakes. We can use these lessons to become more forgiving and accepting of those that don’t quite understand. I am grateful to know how good life can be when you stay clear. It is because of that, that I choose to stay clear today. When I have those thoughts of going back to the places that I thought I left behind it creates a lot of anxiety and fear. But I must never forget those places from which I once came.

The Night Jogging & Prayer Experience

My Night Jogging and Prayer Experience

by Marcello Maiuri

I did 4 miles in 30 minutes. At the end of the run I prayed out loud and had a very spiritual experience. It started off pretty formal but after a few minutes I just started talking like I was with a friend. The spirit at that point started to overwhelm me and I got pretty emotional for all the things that I’m grateful for. I’m so happy that WAR has given me a way to become a better person and to try and live a clear life as well as I can.

The Running, Reading, & Prayer Experience

The Running, Reading, & Prayer Experience

by Mike Lopez

Went out this morning with a great playlist of uplifting music such as Capital D, Pearl Jam, & GangStarr. Ran about three miles in my neighborhood @ 80% sprinting 200 yards at the end to my house. Stopped at a park & sat under a tree getting lost in prayer for guidance, strength, & to develop a righteous mind. Found this verse that really stuck out to me.. 2 Timothy 3:16-17. It spoke to me about being a man of God & that scriptures are the breath of God speaking to you. My realization from it all was that I need to work on giving back to the people I love & that love me. & not getting selfish in my ways knowing that God will grant me true peace & happiness if I look outside of myself & be the charitable person that I once learned to be.